I had a nightmare last night. The fear was real. I woke up afraid & I was relieved once I realized that it was only a dream.
I had a dream I was out with my crew drinking, we were crazy drunk. Then we got into an altercation with some guys outside on the streets, we knuckled up with those other guys & I blacked out. When I came to I was holding a gun & the guy I was fighting with was laid out on the streets with a bullet wound to his chest.
My crew was yelling at me "you killed him"!!!!
We all ran, we tried to play things off like nothing happened but the cops caught up with me eventually. I was put on trial & convicted of murder. Sentenced to natural life in prison (what the fuck!??!)
The COs walked me to my cell, I was shackled from head to toe. Then I stepped into my cell & the door slammed behind me.
My mind was racing, random thoughts stampeding through my head, yo I blacked out I don't remember shooting this guy. Maybe I didn't do it.
I was going crazy thinking that I would never see the outside world again. I started punching the walls of my cell screaming at the top of my lungs. Here come the COs preparing to extract me, they screamed out warnings for me to comply but I had gone mad already. I yelled back at them "I want you to KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "Come on motherfuckers come in & get me!!!!!"
I didn't want to live for the rest of my life in that prison, I wanted to die & go out in a blaze of glory in a battle with the COs.
Then I woke up.
Holy shit. I emptied all the clips of my heaters then I locked the ammunition away in a separate place from my hardware. Then locked the hardware away in a separate place. Double locked.
That's how much I got freaked out by that dream.
